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transfix
02:44
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you know that i love you
i don't wanna love you
[repeated a lot of times. i dont wanna count.]
i wish that i didn't love you
every time we separate
we go weeks without talking but
i think that we're doing great
every now and then i think
about the times we never had
even though i want you back i
sorta feel like kinda glad
cause even though my therapist said
you’re gonna be good for me
im addicted to you and i
don’t need your toxicity
you know that i love you / i don't wanna love you
i dont wanna love you
& i dont wanna fuck you
i dont wanna hold you
& i dont wanna kiss you
& though you still transfix me
& take all those cute pics w me
& laugh at my own tics w me
i dont want you to fix me
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fucked
03:31
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i don’t know what to do
after all i did for you
i didn’t know what to say
but i guess…
who fucking cares?
you & i know good & well
the friendship was destined for hell
and though you know i hate to dwell
this all could’ve just turned out swell
when i told my mom about what you did
she said you were acting like a kid
but i didn’t listen & so we slid
down a path much worse, oh, god forbid
but you know
that you’re the only one
so that’s
why i stay with you and
why you stay with me and
why i think about you when i go to sleep
& it’s
hard to think about cause
i know that you still care about me
and you know that i still care about you
but it’s so fucked up
woooooh
it’s so fucked up
& though im jumping to the conclusions
at the bottom of this cliff we’re in
i think im justified in my actions
cause you love getting under my skin
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(big) joke
03:19
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loving you is nice
& loving you makes me feel safe at home
the home i never felt good in
you hold me close to you
& you tell me everything will be okay
you won’t do me like they did
you won’t, you won’t
i can’t trust that you will be good
i can’t trust that you won’t hurt me
even though i love you so
i still think this is one big joke, oh
i can’t date you right now
im not ready for that kind of love
thank you anyway
for making me feel worthy
even though it hurts im
gonna love you forever
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transfix ii (interlude)
02:17
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you know that i love you
i don't wanna love you
i don't wanna love you
& i don't wanna fuck you
i don't wanna hold you
& i don't wanna kiss you
i don't wanna love you (x4)
i don't wanna hold you & i don't wanna kiss you
i don't wanna love you (x4)
i don't wanna hold you & i don't wanna kiss you
i don't wanna love you (x6)
& though you still transfix me
& take all those cute pics w me
& laugh at my own tics w me
i don't want you to fix me
i don't wanna love you (x4)
i don't wanna hold you & i don't wanna kiss you
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use
02:10
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when we met in the tumblr gay tag
& i sent an ask to you
and you said you’d love me forever
if i did what you told me to do
i told you about my addiction
and how im distrustful of people
and you were supportive but
maybe too supportive
but thanks anyway
you know how to use me
you & your fake DID shit
i cant believe this happened again
wow, my great taste in men
i bet robbie loves you after what you did
you know how to use me
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twinkish
02:33
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he says im too big to be a twink
but i dont know, i kinda think it’s all in the personality
he says im too big to be a twink
& maybe he’s right in all actuality
but the bears in my gay group
say im the twinkest of all
he says im too big to be a twink
because he’s 90lbs and i can’t even feel him when he’s on me
im too big to be a twink
but i dont wanna complain just like im running back to mommy
but the guys in my discord chat
say im the twinkest of all
he says im too big to be a
says im too big to be a
says im too big to be a twink (x2)
he says im too big to be a twink
and his mom agrees, but even worse than that
she doesnt say im too big to be a twink
she says im just to big to even exist near her
he says im too big to be a twink
but im so ugly for a hunk and im so wimpy for a bear
he says im too big to be a twink
maybe i’ll be a little otter if i grow out all my hear
he says im too big to be a
says im too big to be a
says im too big to be a twink (x2)
he says im too big to be a twink
so i guess im just twinkish
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joxer San Antonio, Texas
22 year old critter who makes music about mental illness and wanting to be a child again.
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