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initial split
01:18
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this isn't real
mom, i don't feel like myself
why is this happening?
i don't know where i am
nothing feels real anymore
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2. |
cocsa
04:11
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i was just a baby
you were just a baby
i was just a baby
you were just a baby
then you and we were just babies
lost my innocence as a baby
who hurt you first?
you were just a baby
will i move on? i don’t know, maybe
for now, i feel stuck as a baby
was i yell does anyone hear?
i just want it to disappear
you say to whisper in your ear when im ready
i say “no, please, not here”
i am seeing you again tomorrow
there is no time left to borrow
i wish that i could feel sorrow
but i am looking forward to tomorrow
do you even remember?
what happened years ago, that november?
the fireplace in your house filled with ember
wish i was you & i didn’t remember
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3. |
age gap
02:32
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i’m the older one of us so
why are you hurting me so much?
you’re the younger one of us
does that make me the monster?
you’re pushing me
hugging me
choking me
loving me
on top of me
pinning me
killing me
filling me
you hold me down, hold me down
wait, your sister’s watching us
hold me down, hold me down, hold me down
you hold me down, hold me down
wait, your brother’s watching us
hold me down, hold me down, hold me down
my mom told me i shouldn’t listen
to boys who said they’d treat me well
but you seem nice enough to me, so
guess i’m going straight to hell
im sick of you
pick up your
toys and the
rest of the
boys and just
get out of
my friend’s front yard
don’t hold me down, hold me down
please, the neighbor’s watching us
hold me down, hold me down, hold me down
don't hold me down, hold me down
stop, your mother’s watching us
hold me down, hold me down, hold me down
your sister warned me about you, so
i guess all this was just my bad
by the way, i forgot to thank you
for not giving me what you had
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4. |
homicidal
01:53
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i am new
but i'll kill you, too
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5. |
game over screen
03:14
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this is a $waggot cover
i guess i wandered too far of the path
i guess i shoulda kept a much closer eye on my cash
i guess i shoulda prolly double, triple check my math
i guess ur prolly gonna yell or just beat my ass
and i dont have a whole lot to say
in my defense, it wasnt worth it
'cause i wasnt paid as much as i deserve
and how on earth could i behave like that?
how did i get the nerve to throw it all away?
you're always so hard on me
talking down to me
while you've got your hard on three
inches away from me
yes i wore my heart on my sleeve
till you undressed me
you said im better off with these
now you feel differently
but im only thirteen, you know
i just need a little time to grow
and yeah i know it fucking blows
but so do i, so shut your bedroom door and let me go
i know im pushing my luck
but you know youre my king
can we continue to fuck
and just forget everything?
i see it coming down
the game over screen
continue going down
or end the game with me
[game over]
i guess i never thought i'd crash
i guess i shoulda kept a much closer eye on my back
i guess i shoulda prolly cried when i wanted to laugh
i guess im going straight to hell, i guess
i guess that's that
there's not a whole lot i can say
i never meant for you to look at me in that way
but i deserve it after all i wasnt well behaved
i need to stop blowing you
ive got too much to say
you're so cool 'cause you're older than me
you're so cruel, you're never open to me
but i was hoping youd see
you're choking me, let go of me
but only for a second, i need a chance to breathe
but im only thirteen, you know
i just need a little time to grow
and yeah, i know it fucking blows
but so do i so shut your bedroom door and let me go
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6. |
high school senior
02:16
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17 & on top of the world
magazines and diamonds and pearls
first real time that i’ve been with a girl
i’m 17 and my girl just left me
do i still like boys? well let’s see
one of me will date one of you
let’s see what we’ll do
asked if i was down, oh hell yes
you’d never even know i second guessed
come down, boy, my mom’s not home
now that i think about it i dont
know if we should fuck right now just
cause we’re real good friends and all
and i don’t wanna fuck this up
but maybe i should just put up with it
cause i don’t wanna disappoint you
and you seem like you’d be real gentle
so what’s the worst that could happen?
making out with you was nice and all
but after that, it felt like too much
but im just way too shy to say stop
so whatever, i’ll be fine
17 and ive never regretted this
‘till this time right now, i hate this
didn’t have a lot of fun but
hey, i mean, at least he did
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joxer San Antonio, Texas
22 year old critter who makes music about mental illness and wanting to be a child again.
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